Never Touch My Food

Saturday, September 18, 2010 4:25 AM

fast and furious. lol.
went to angeline's 21st birthday. lol.
it was a buffet dinner. lol.
actually was quite boring. =x
i brought my camera.
but really didnt use it. lol.
jst anyhow take picture.
and the dumb thing is, i also took their family picture. =.=
so, now, only post pictures that are link to me la! lol

this is angeline with Satays!! lol

her brithday cake.

she look so stiff. lol

G802

G801. :)

b irthday song!

make a wish!

thijs was the card we bought.
DON THINK WRONGLY. LOL

jst anyhow take somep picture la. lol

we played mahjong.
wah, really, long and long. lol.
we was playing so slow.
and huichen cannot see us playing so slow, take over me to try to play faster. lol.
in the end, i won 20bucks. lol.
but not gonna spend it. lol.
it was meant to cover the present's money.
and yes, tmr i've another mahjong game. lol.
cfm damn shabby. lol.
20bucks is alot sia. lol.
home at 3.45am.
damn tired.
gonna go sleep.
goodnight! :D

<3 to my lovely babes out there! :D

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Thursday, September 16, 2010 2:15 PM

hi. i'm in my lab now.

i swear i'm damn freaking cold.

shivering.

omg.

didnt bring my jacket. =.=

so colddddddd..

any kind soul bring me a jacket? lol.

went to watch zombie show. (28weeks)

i mean, at kristie house.

i hell swear, damn digusting. lol.

AND THAT KRISTIE YEONG STILL KEEP SCARING ME.

bloody hell.

i go home alrdy still don dare go anywhere.

i mean to toilet or whatever.

if i wanna go downstair, i've to on all the lights before i go down.

lol.

i humji.

can anot?!

and and and, she still wanna watch 28months.

wtf.

really, omg la.

want scare die me

i swear. lol

any kind soul willing to come my house and sleep with me? (IN MY ROOM. NOT BED. LOL)

i very scareeeeee...

gross me out. LOL.

okay, whatever it is, i donno whether have you read the post.

but since your FEELING are always strong, i suppose you've feel that i'm gg to post something on my blog.

and yes, i did post something on my blog.

actually i wanted to delete the post.

maybe it can save our friendship, and not making it worse.

but after much thought, i'm not gg to delete.

simple.

because that's really how i feel on that day.

believe me.

i type the post until i almost cry.

i swear.

guess how much it hurts my heart?

but for now.

things are really gg to the way which i don want the most.

okay, seriously, i'm not involve.

but i like, cannot see this thing gg this way.

see no down go.

i'm the bystander.

i saw everything.

i saw things from both sides.

you may think that there's nothing.

but because i'm the bystander, actually i've the most clear view of everything.

maybe what i've done is wrong.

but certainly, cfm not only i wrong.

my personality is liddat.

i'm not gonna change.

i'm stubborn.

for me, whatever relationship is hurt, it's not easy for me to stand up and face it back.

so i always avoid.

but when i'm avoiding, who knows whether how hurt am i?

because i don tell ppl about my things.

nobody really knows how i feel.

even if i wanna say out, i donno how to say/phrase it.

ya, how much i wanted this friendship.

but for now, really, i cant.

i swear i'm really hurt.

it's like a scar, no matter how, there will still be a scar.

i donno who are the others who have read the post.

of course, some ppl may be angry,

some may be sad.

but, i jst wanna be fair.

i wanna be fair to myself.

for ppl who are angry, i'm sorry.

because that's really how i feel.

for ppl who are sad, i'm sorry too.

because i'm suppose to be on earth to bring laughter and happiness to you all.

i really donno how will things goes now.

but, i really hope, things will goes well.

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Monday, September 13, 2010 12:59 AM

my mentally exhausted day have been very tiring tdy.
thanks alot for the last min meeting girls.
i really feel happy with you guys being at my side and cracking lame idiotic jokes to make me laugh. :D

everything seems like my fault.
for ignoring and avoiding you.
and you blame me for that so that's one of the reason you got close with her.
you always says big logic.
that we cant say back.
but actually, you're jst repeating what you've said and i'm jst lazy and to say you back.
really no comments.

everything wont be solved.
i'm serious.
friendship and love.
and your freaking idiotic love logic.
i really have no comments.
i really feel damn sian talking to you now.
the main thing is that you've got tgt with her.
if at the start, i didnt avoid you, i told you that you shld not get tgt with her.
i disagree. WOULD YOU LISTEN? NO!
using your logic back to you is somehow only what i can do.
cause whatever i've say, it seems no effect on you.
jst freaking forget it i swear.
and you keep saying issit worth to lose a friend because of this?
i'm telling you now.
i'm a person who thinks that no means no.
don like means don like.
i don like being two faced.
i don like acting out a happy face, giving blessing or whatever hell shit.
i swear i don.
from the start, i've alrdy said that, i'll disagree if you both get tgt.
and yes, now, i'll still hold my standing.
and i wont move.
you keep saying your true friends your true friends.
FINE!
GO!
go to all your true friends.
lose me wont be a big deal.
jst freaking get lost.
i freaking got damn digusted if i see you and her tgt.
i swear.
digusted is the word.
imagine my mood from happy can straight away drop down to the end of sad, emo.
what a big effect on my mood.

ya, you against all odds.
you big.
you big deal.
last more than 10years okay.
jst get lost.
being proud over 10years.
shout and scream that you will last with her for 10years.
you've seriously disgusted and disappointed me.
so now love is bigger than friend.
go, jst go.
you both got tgt is the biggest deal on earth.
i cant do anything right?
your love logic.
Love cant be control.
would you get tgt with a stranger?
would you fall for a stranger?
no! all no! wtf.
a distance issit so difficult.
feelings is there.
wtf.
feelings is there.
wtf la.

you told your true friends about you story.
it's also your side of story.
you say you didnt say anything to let them side on you.
but, dumb ass. telling them things of your side, isnt it jst like telling them your advantage?
ahhh. wtf.
today is really a f up day for me.

actually nobody really knows how i feel now.
the world seems so cold now.
i'm alone.
thinking alot.
gg emo.
i didnt even know i'll experience this kind of friendship.
thank god.
i've 5 really good friends.
i'm not psychoing them to be at the side with me.
but at least, they're the ones who are really making me happy now.
they make me laugh, they make me smile, they jst make my world feels much more better.

i've lost you.
i've lost all your true friend.
i'm leaving.

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Friday, September 10, 2010 3:19 AM

The days of Clock in and Clock out have OFFICIALLY ended.
this marks the great end of sem 3.1
but, ohwell, not for me.
project not finished yet.
so, need to go back to schl to do it. =/
LAst day of schl is fun.
wanted to order pizza.
but still, FAILED.
went to mensa for lunch, and saw the other half of the class. (Y)
a small lab last lunch. Lol.
like pathetic only pls. lol.
but, ohwell.
i really miss my lab mates. lol.
they really rocks.
will miss the day where everybody complaining the aircon is too cold.
and playing cs tgt.
today was fun, because everybody came to play cs tgt! lol.
was able to play a 5v5. HAHA.
WOW! nice man i swear. lol.

ohya, i'm gg for the korean pop night concert.
yeah, expensive.
SO WHAT?
SHINee, SNSD, BIG BANG is coming pls.
big big big!
and i really hate squeezing with guys.
wtf.
idiotic chicken macnugget. lol.

had a small slack day with quek and twt.
happy enuff. lol.
tmr shall be shopping day with mother! :)

i really cant bring myself to accept the fact.
it's like, you both, not suppose?
ahhhh F.
what've the world gg on?
issit a history repeat?
JUST FML LA.

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Saturday, September 04, 2010 12:34 PM

went back to junyuan for teachers day.
i really miss Miss L. lol.
she's always my best teacher. :D
and june tan is at her class now.
so (Y)
i actually even dream of miss lin before gg to schl. (Y)
this shows how much i miss her. lol