Never Touch My Food

Sunday, April 29, 2012 4:35 AM

How many times i really need to swallow all these shits down??
I can nvr ever confront you.
after that incident, the dislike lvl only have went up. and not down.
it's freaking annoying i swear.
I know i'm not alone.
there will be ppl agreeing with me.
but, fuck.
can you jst fucking y=realise your mistake?
we alr quarrel so many times before.
but dont you still realise? dont you still uds?
to say who or whoever, you are the one who shld know me the best.
but you are still doing it. you seriously still does it.
i really dont like the part.
things get adds on and not reduce.
i really have nothing to say.
my patience lvl is not high i swear.
stop testing my line of exploding.

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Monday, April 23, 2012 1:50 AM

Idk what shld i say, I wanna say different things to different people.
but it's like, i'm unwilling to say because i know, after i say, i will regret.
it's like i will lose a part of me.
but, not every different ppl will get to know all my problems.
i know what shld i say, what i shld not.
if i'm willing to share with you, be honoured.
it's so hard being like this.
i know this shldnt be the way.
but i really cant do anything.
it's like there's a fight inside. sigh.
it looked like it's really hard to hide feelings.
"The feeling when you want somebody, and you dont wanna act like you do, but it's hard to pretend that you dont."

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Friday, April 13, 2012 8:46 AM

Its friday! I'm in schl now. Freaking early. :(
Its a phone charging day. Tdy cfm full batt whole day. Hahah.
God a scratch ytd at 201 by the flowers when I'm talking on the phone.
201 really curse to me I swear. :(
I'm freaking tired now.
Like the scratch making my ankle tired. (Dk is think too much or what)
Then my back super pain now.
Didn't get enough sleep somemore. :(

It was fun. Idk why but it feels fun. Yeah, probably its like a getaway. From my stress-yet-not-doing-anything for my studies.
I'm not thinking anything that I shldnt think.
Although now, I'm thinking la. But then its good that I didn't think at that time. Its really impt for me to have fun.
I need to have fun, drain out all my energy.
And now, I really really really have to study for my main exams alr. This is very very impt.
I don't wanna be bad to myself, to my conscience, to my mother. She is paying so much for my schl.
The least the least is, I need to pass my exams. That's really this least.
SELF CONTROL & SELF MOTIVATION & SELF DISCIPLINE.
PLEASE COME AND FIND ME.
-vii3nz
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Thursday, April 12, 2012 1:44 AM

I'm kind of guilty and idky. But, haiya.
Its like a small matter! But jst, haiya. If the heart wanna feel this way I also bobian right? Lol.
Gonna Sleep off the guilty-ness.
Thanks to my kkyysmb. Heheh.
Always letting me rant and vent and nag and complain! Hahah.
Happy that I have someone who I can talk to when I have problems.
And thanks her for always being my listening ear! Hahha.
She's da best! Haha.

-vii3nz
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1:44 AM

Whenever I feel this way, I always tell myself, its useless. Don't think about it.
Sometimes things really sucks.
When your brain and your mind doesn't communicate well.
My brain told me to be clever. Be realistic.
But my heart jst don't wanna let me go.
Its hard for the heart to listen right?
Swallow everything down the stomach.
Things will get better.
That's what I always say but nothing is gonna be true enough.
I'm contradicting myself.
On the surface is kind of different from the inside.
It really sucks this way. But I couldn't helped it. :(
I miss how the way. But now, it don't feel like how it feels.
I'm falling deeper. But I'm not gonna let myself drop too deep.
Brain: Distance would be good.
Heart: I can't bear.
Brain: Will get hurt if you dont.
Heart: I know. But still, I can't.
Brain: try harder.

Heart: I'm trying.
-vii3nz
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Saturday, April 07, 2012 10:58 PM

lai lai, update update. haha.
random update, random pictures. let me see... haha.

this picture is funny.
cause we thought there's shuttle bus.
then we sat at the car pouch* for the shuttle bus.
and we waited like 20mins.
then we realise...
the shuttle bus service only starts at like 2pm.
when the timing when we are waiting is 12pm. HAHAH.
noob shyt. we wasted time waiting! haha.

had lunch at Nando's for the first time.
the chicken portion liek a small.
it's the rice and fries making me damn full. haha.

we was freaking tired.
because it's a saturday, and we have class.
on the way on the train, suddenly a text came saying that class is postpone. lol
then we was at tanah merah station at that time.
so we alight and went to expo station, went to changi point.
had macbreakfast there.
then anyhow walk arnd, then go home awhile.

went out with quek, elaine and zhixin.
went to town to walk arnd.
i forgot where we go.
after that come and meet them.
then went to town and walk. was like, tired.
not enough sleep de tired and walk till tired. hahaha.

went to helipad as there's guestlist.
it was kind of a horrible experience? haha.
went to helipad. then like, abeet atas. i dont like the feeling.
then we need to drink.
went out then go to CQ. then go to giant hollywood? lol.
went to order a tower of beer.
cant even get drunk uh pls. haha.
after that, went back to helipad for awhil.e
but still dont like the environment.
so in the end, we went rebel.
it's the first time in a night i can get 3 stamps. hahha. noob shyt.
then it was saturday night.
club till sunday, it's april fool. ahhaha.

then i was at home during sunday.
i cooked spag.
so i anyhow tweet.
then paul suddenly reply say she want.
in the end, she called me because, she thought it was april fool. haha!
2 fools so noob.
but i really did cooked uh.
so in the end they came up and have lunch with me!

so it was kind of a... they scare i cheat them de april fool. haha!

went for Andy's 21st birthday.
from sec 4 till now, alr like 4 eyars liao.
they still haven play finish it. like, wah lao!
need to bring up the past and say not?! lol.

long time no see de ahma. hehe.

birthday boy!

this is kind of the sec 4 clique. haha
but there's no wong and lincoln!
we are the mahjong khakis. hehee.

i keep thinking of things that i shldnt even be thinking.
keep a distance before you fall deeper.
i know i can get thru all this.
jst because i have went thru things that are more tougher than this.

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Monday, April 02, 2012 5:44 PM

Why did you even say that..
Not keeding.
Its like a false hope.
Jst set me thinking non-stop.
Freeze it pls.
-vii3nz
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Sunday, April 01, 2012 8:55 PM

Updates on some pictures! hahah.
Very long then update once, have lots of pictures to upload too.
but it's better to see pictures then read a whole chunk of words leh. haha.

Jst random spamming of photos behind bb. haha.

Newly updated photos on avatar.
shall post it too! :)

This is the After-Clubbing-Jst-Woke-Up-Look.
hahahha. very cui hor!

this photo is funny.
we are kind of jealous that all of them went bkk.
so we decided to make a stupid path video.
then let them watch.
show them that we are enjoying even in sg! haha.

this photo is super long ago.
pr came my house for cny steamboat!
it's the same, photos jst uploaded on fb thats why. :/

was gg thru larlene's instagram's photo then i saw this. hahaa

compare the photos between normal one and the instagram's efffect one. haha.
it's been long we 3 went out. like long. cause, yeah. super thingy.
we went to suntan and swimming!
i swam 2 laps only. haha.
larlene swam like 4 laps?! hahaha. good job quek. aha.
now i got sunburnt. zzz.
not like it's sunburnt. but lik emy skin super red and have the shape.
then sometimes itchy, i forgot, i go scratch, GG.COMZ. wah lao, pain die me. haha.

jst let everything die down.
although i really want to know what happen, but still. since all of you've said that.
i can only use guessing or rather, forget about everything.
it's not like i kaypo or whatever. i jst care. like care.
might as well jst dont let me know anything.
if not rather, jst tell me everything.
dont let me know there's something there, and tell me not to care.
i cant, i wont.
ahhhhh. i know how to sort my thinking.
i will sort it out and stop thinking about all these stuffs.

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