idky but i feel terrible. idk how to explain the feeling but.
i jst dont like lies. although the truth is much more hurting.
but the lie is making me feel more terrible.
be honest pls.
it's not about knowing or not knowing.
if i completely doesnt know about it, idc.
but now i only some things about it, i want to know it all.
i believe i can do it better. not the kind that you all think.
haiya, fuck la. this shldnt be the way i be.
i always dc dont bother. so i must follow on that way.
Him nae Vivien.

So, after i edited the newer post and older post icon ytd night, tdy, i started reading back.
i realise that year 2011, i really didnt update much.
while year 2009, it was all words and no pictures. haha.
probably, year 2010 was the most post, mostpictures, most words.
everything happened 2 year ago..
it's seriously, quite long. things jst pass by so fast?
i used 1 year to actually start opening up.
so that now, its possible for me to go out with them, with her.
although we may not be how we like last time. but at least, i tried.
you said you dont give up friends. but it is jst, me. i cant do it.
year 2012, things are different.
there was actually once i went out with you alone.
that's a fucking big step for me.
it sounded like no big deal?
but it's a fucking big deal for me. seriously.
i didnt expect myself to open up so easily.
i didnt expect myself to accept it, and walked out.
but seriously, i still dont accept it.
whenever i see that girl, it still turns me off. i still dont want to see. i'm not exaggerating but, whenever i see her name, jst her name, i go so turn off. my mood can drop the the end of the earth.
i really dk what i am thinking.
during the first half of 2010, i was so happy that i have you. pictures are all happily smiling.
the second half of 2010, all the shits came. no more pictures, no more smile, no more you.
it's year 2012. i really shld forget everything and move on.
i did move on. it's not like i didnt move on.
but i jst dont want to get reminded of the hurtful past.
i seriously dont like it.
things are jst so different now.
the way you treat me now, i feel so weird.
sigh. i dk what shld i do now.
jst trying to treat everything natural then.

ps, i sounded like i'm in a relationship uh. but no. she is jst my fucking best friend last time.

some random updates. haha.
All my photos are taken from iphone.
jst say it.
nowadays, iphone jst so easy to take pictures right? haha.













and finally! the girls picture. hahah.
i love them all. really! haha.
they are the reason why my life is so colourful now. hhehe. (omg, sound so gross. hehee)
if not i think, after my poly grad, my life would be colourless.
gg home every single day after schl.
nobody to hang out with or whatsoever. haha.
and their interest is clubbing. haha.
so, somehow match my interest? haha!
the first time we go Avatar is really bad experience.
kind of?
the bartender was fuck up.
the speed that he is making the drinks is so damn freaking slow.........
cant stand it.
butter is way much faster. hahah.

my pr babies are at bkk now.
kind of miss them.
too relying on them alr.
because i was all along alright when i'm alone during my poly life.
but since when i have them.
i no longer liked the feeling of being alone.
seeing any of them jst made my day. really.
even simple slacking too. haha.
I'm missing my pr babies badly!!!

Went to the titanic exhibition held in singapore, MBS!
it is jst like, jst go there and see see los.
for one time also jst go see. haha.


I swear only Larlene Quek then can do this epic moment.
Only her!
sneezing at the moment, jst nice when ppl helped us take picture. AHHA.
so inside cannot take photo.
so we jst walk arnd, viewing everything.
after that, come out then take a final photo. ahha.
















not keeding with the serving of food. hahaha.
jst like 1 round and we are dead.
ordered too much. haha.