i built lots of wall arnd me after that incident.
it's been a year. i'm thinking too much.
trust too much, giving out too much, that's why getting so much injuries back.
i donno how to explain but. it's still in my mind.
i'm still not ready to open up, to trust, to forgive, to forget. i know i wont.
i'm stubborn. but it hurts my heart.
not thinking of it but, when it really came into my mind, it hurt every single second.
(i say till like i'm in a relationship uh. but i'm not. hehehe)
i still put a smile on my face because i know the next day will be better.
it will be a brand new day, i will make a better memory with it.
those walls are only to myself and me, and i, and vivien to break it off.
i cant break it off. i tried. maybe i didnt try hard enough but, i dont have the strength to break it off. :(
life sucks when i got reminded of this but i have no choice.
it's only on myself to forget about it,
i got over it. i walked on. but the scar is still there.
what can i do? i still walked on.
cause i know there's still many others.
i think so much is because, the person was the one i trusted so much.
and jst because of character and personality is not the same, we quarrel, talked.
it's useless. sigh. i donno what to say but....... sigh.
come on vivien chew.
i know you can do it. try harder.
break off all the freaking walls, brand new day, brand new start.
i don care cause i don wanna think more.
so, jiayou vivien chew. :D
-vii3nz*
