i built lots of wall arnd me after that incident.
it's been a year. i'm thinking too much.
trust too much, giving out too much, that's why getting so much injuries back.
i donno how to explain but. it's still in my mind.
i'm still not ready to open up, to trust, to forgive, to forget. i know i wont.
i'm stubborn. but it hurts my heart.
not thinking of it but, when it really came into my mind, it hurt every single second.
(i say till like i'm in a relationship uh. but i'm not. hehehe)
i still put a smile on my face because i know the next day will be better.
it will be a brand new day, i will make a better memory with it.
those walls are only to myself and me, and i, and vivien to break it off.
i cant break it off. i tried. maybe i didnt try hard enough but, i dont have the strength to break it off. :(
life sucks when i got reminded of this but i have no choice.
it's only on myself to forget about it,
i got over it. i walked on. but the scar is still there.
what can i do? i still walked on.
cause i know there's still many others.
i think so much is because, the person was the one i trusted so much.
and jst because of character and personality is not the same, we quarrel, talked.
it's useless. sigh. i donno what to say but....... sigh.
come on vivien chew.
i know you can do it. try harder.
break off all the freaking walls, brand new day, brand new start.
i don care cause i don wanna think more.
so, jiayou vivien chew. :D

Sometimes knowing the truth isnt that good afterall.
it's better to forget about it then remembering it.
cause once you know the truth and it's certain.
it tends to stay in the mind.
so it's bad. right

i was still in schl during my birthday.
they had this official Engine 20th photoshoot.
but since there's no ppl and agnes ask me to go and take picture.
i really spam. hahaha.
there's alot and alot of me. hahaha!

































i seriously think that this picture is epic-ness.
look fcuking pervert. hahahah.
okay, i'm happy for the day.